Sunday, May 17, 2009

母の日 Mother's Day

今日、ハートを作りました。
I've just made this heart so quickly.




真ん中に使ったのはプチポアンの刺繍モチーフです。
The center motif is a tent stitched one.



この刺繍モチーフはこういう形で届いた電報からはずしました。弔電です。先週私たちに届いたものの一つです。
It's from this condolence telegram, which is one of many we recieved last week.



5月10日の深夜、正確には11日になりますが、2月10日から入院していた母が亡くなりました。昨年の11月から肺炎を繰り返し、その都度ほとんど奇跡的に回復してきたのですが、もう治療を施されるのが嫌になっていたのかもしれません。前日の夕方、私が訪れたときには落ち着いた状態だったのですが、夜中に看護婦さんが巡回したときには呼吸が止まっていたそうです。誰もいないスキを狙って旅立つことにしたのでしょう。『母の日』の深夜だったなあ、と思います。

In the midnight of May 11, my mother passed away in hospital, where she had been staying since February 10. She had overcome pneumonia four times while then but finally seemed to decide to put off her body after my last visiting on Mother's Day.

この一週間、慌ただしく過ごしました。病院まで片道40分のドライブという毎日の日課が急になくなり、何だか茫洋とした気分です。

I had busy days last week. Before then driving to the hospital to see her and returning home was my daily routine. It took me three hours everyday. I wonder how to fill the empty schedule I have got suddenly now.

21 comments:

Ati. Norway. said...

My condolences to you Hideko. No matter how old your mother became, she always will be missed.It will be very empty for you in the months to come. I wish you much strenght. Hugs, Ati.

Dana W. Fisher said...

My deepest sympathies, Hideko, in the loss of your dear mother.

Karen South said...

Hideko my thoughts and prayers are with you in this time of sadness. Your heart is beautiful and will remind you of the beauty your mother brought to your life.

Karrin Hurd said...

So sorry to hear about your mother Hideko. My condolences to you and your family.

Emmy said...

my condolences to you and your family ,so sad, I wish you much strenght.
warm regards Emmy

Francy said...

sending hugs and my condolences to you and your family on the loss of your mom.

The heart you made is beautiful.

Lorenza said...

So sorry Hideko to read that your mum passed away, I know you'll miss her so much.

Anonymous said...

Hideko, I am so sorry for your loss. Your mother will always be in your heart. Debbie (Maine) USA

Marilyn said...

My condolences to you Hideko, for the loss of your dear Mother.

Rengin Yazitas said...

Dear Hideko,
I just learned your big loss now. My condolences to you, dear friend.
I share your sadness.
Rengin

Thelma said...

My condolences to you Hideko. I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your dear mother.

kerrykatiecakeskeb43 said...

Dearest Hideko - those three hours will be the hardest I know. My father would always come to our house for the day on Wednesday to visit and after he died I had to go out and get a job working Wednesdays so I would not sit home waiting. No matter how old you or your parents may be when they pass, you still feel like an orphan. I am happy you have your stitching - keeping your mind and fingers busy helps.
Much love,
Kerry

coral-seas said...

Dear Hideko, I would like to add my condolences ont the sad loss of your mother.

Best wishes, Carol-Anne

Hideko Ishida 石田英子 said...

I would like to express my deep thanks to all for your condolences. It was not easy for me to have kept seeing her suffered from illness, mentally as well as physically. I was rather relieved when her soul could put off her body. But still the loss is so big I don't know how to do with this feeling yet.

ayako said...

深い悲しみの中にいらっしゃることとお察しいたします。
私も母を亡くした時には毎日毎日母のことを思って過ごしておりました。
一周忌を控えたある夜、「あ、今日はまだ一度も母のことを思っていなかった」と気がつきましたが、結局その日も思い出していたことになります。
私よりももっと近くもっと長く一緒にいらしたのですからその損失感はいかばかりでしょう。
母を亡くした時に「大丈夫、今度は守り神になってあなたを守ってくれますよ」と慰められました。母の時も父の時も確かに守ってくれていたような気がします。そして七回忌が済んだとき「もうだいじょうぶかな」と言われたような気がしました。
これが仏教なのかどうかはわかりませんが、母も父も遠くへ行ってしまいました。

改めてお母様のご冥福をお祈りいたします。

ayako said...

「喪失感」と書くべきところ「損失感」と間違って打ってしまいました。ごめんなさい。

Plays with Needles said...

I understand your relief and your emptiness after your mother has gone. I lost my mother last Spring and still have many of the same emotions. I'm very very sorry; dear Hideko, that you lost your Mother. There's no one like the in the world -- and you were so very lucky to have her as long as you did.

Healing thoughts are with you. Susan

shawkl said...

Oh, my heart just hurts for you! I am so very sorry to hear of your mother's death...and pray that your stitching can give your heart some little comfort! Sending hugs to you from across the ocean! Kathy (www.shawkl.com)

Bear said...

Hideko
this is so far down the line since you had this sad news, I am very very sad for you- its not easy loosing your loved mother and I feel in my heart the ache you are probably still feeling. Please know Hideko you are so very loved and I will be thinking of you and your family
God Bless Hideko
love n hugs always Belinda (Bear)

Kathy said...

Hideko, I am so sorry for the loss of your mother. I pray the good memories will be of comfort to you.
I haven't been able to be on computer much for awhile now. I am sorry I didn't know about this sooner. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Ritva said...

So sorry Hideko for the loss of your mother. My warm condolences.